It has been a hard day. Hard because I have to stop and cry when I think of the children that have to live without their Mom, the brothers and sisters and parents who will never see her again in this life, and the husband that has to raise their seven incredible children by himself.
Yes, I lost my Aunt and yes, that is really really hard. But it hurts so much worse to think of what they are all going through and when I think of having to go through the same thing, I get so scared. Scared of what this life brings and scared for the future. I just want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world.
But then I remember my Father in Heaven. And His Beautiful, Merciful, Wonderful Plan of Happiness. Happiness. He wants me to be happy. She wants me to be happy. I know that this life, though it seems like eternity now, is only just a blink of time in the whole scheme of things. I know that even though we have to live without Lynnanne now, we will have the rest of eternity to live and be with her. And that makes me happy. Having the knowledge of God's plan gives me hope in this awful time of fear and darkness. It makes me so grateful to my Saviour and Lord Jesus Christ who gave His own life so that I can be united again with our dear Aunt, Sister, Wife, and Mother.
Here are a couple of blog posts from today that really touched my heart. First, my sister Rachel's blog post: No Words to Write which is really great. She has such a beautiful way of writing and she has insights into life that open my eyes and heart and make me sit in awe of her talent. And second, my incredible cousin Brooke's blog post: Okay Today. My dear cousin Brooke, you don't even know how much of an influence and inspiration you are in my life. I look up to you in every way!
The next weeks and months are going to be even harder than today. There is so much that I wish I could do for all of my wonderful family but I think the best thing I can do is pray. So that's what I'm gonna do. Pray for strength, happiness, peace and courage to get through the hard times.
I love you Lynnanne!
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